o well..time for an update....sorry it's been a while...i was on a well needed vacation....so...well lets see...i went to kentucky/ tenesse for a house boat trip with the family ( prolly the last one seeing as my grams isn't doing all that well) we went to Dale Hollow lake...it was really nice to bee cut off from everyone but the people who really matter the most...my family( everyone from my mom side) and my bestest friend..who i prolly would be dead if it wasn't for her... i missed a few of you...i will name no names but u should know who u are...and yes i turned off my phone...sorry people...i had too...didn't want anyone bothering me...i read 4 books.... in a span of 7 days...and swam...and layed out on the deck..a nd got burtn to hell the first day...but i ahve a nice lil tan...and swam some more... played cards....and swam some more...and drank....and swam some more...and sat around and talked...and swam some more... and jumped off the top of the boat( and let me remind u thatdon't know i am afraid of heights! but i think i got over my fear..) and swam.. and thought alot of things like college...and all the things i need for college... and a few people... got everything straight in my mind...and swam some more..and took walks..and swam some more...we swam a lot... lol...the lake is so clear and gorgeous...i didn't want to leave it...i am gonna move south one day... the people are so nice...and the guys are sure hott... o dear...at eagle cove the place we got the boats from and where we would go to gas up..had the hottest crew of dock boys....o dear..the southern twang was enough to melt a girl.. and trust me ...it did...especially tow of the guys... which i happen to get pictures with( props to my 13 yr old cousin for being very outgoing and screaming " HEY WILL U TALKE A PICTURE WITH MY COUSIN!") and in the most sexiest voice i have ever heard " yea... ya'll come down here" so i stand by him and he puts his arm around me and my cousin goes cheese and "he's like nice meeting ya'll"o dear....the thought that crossed my mind was... will is marry me...lol... before that i got a picture of the kid that docked out boat...he had the sexiest eyes...pale shade of blue... he was so sweet... pretty funny to...man i can't wait to get those pics developed... but beside the hott guys and and the swimming and relazing....i feel 100% better...besides the fact that i still kinda have my sea leg sand from time to time i feel like i am rocking... btw that is very soothing when u go to sleep... but i don't feel stressed to the point of breaking...i ahve figured things out..for myself and with the help of no one...not even my bestest friend... she just let me sit and think...she knew i needed it... i am ready to take on the world.. bring it... lol...ok well atleast college...i leave in about 36 days...damn... heres to closing a chapter in my book and opening a new one... but i'm pretty daan exhausted..and for once it's a good exhausted.... it's nice to be back...